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Abigail Welborn's avatar

> "I was constantly angry. I was constantly on edge. I had to deaden all of my emotions just to avoid doing damage. ... Then, I began taking an anti-androgen (Testosterone blocker) and Estrogen. And life changed. I was able to regulate my emotions. I could feel them, listen to them, but not be controlled by them."

It's interesting that you mention this, because that exactly describes my experience of post-partum depression and finally getting on a good dose of SSRI.

Because of that and other conversations I've had, I do still ask something like one of the questions you said you'd address, which is, "If dysphoria is a mental illness [because emotions are in our brain] and a person's body is functioning normally [besides not matching their gender], why do we use physical treatments?"

I very much believe mental illnesses are still illnesses that deserve to be treated, and that treatments can be literally lifesaving. One answer to my above question that would make sense to me is, "We don't have a way to treat the brain part." After I wrote that I realized HRT *is* treating the brain part, it's just also affecting the body--like many medications, but with more obvious "side" effects (that in this case are desirable).

While gender dysphoria is often comorbid with other mental illnesses like depression, it also makes sense to me that one of them is the real cause and it could very well be the dysphoria, especially given how dangerous it is to be trans currently, let alone if a trans person doesn't have community and family support. And I watched a great clip from a comedian who was asked, "What's the difference between being trans and other mental illnesses? Why don't we treat them the same?" and his response was, "Because the people who know what they're talking about say they're not the same." (Of course, trust in expertise is pretty low at the mo too. 🙄) Just like I'm sure you sometimes just say "trust me" in response to computer questions, that makes sense to me too.

It sounds like you're already going to address something along those lines so no need to go deep here, as I'll read the upcoming articles, too. :) But if you feel like sharing, did you pursue therapy/counseling and/or depression meds before seeking HRT? If not, why not? (and I know that your answer wouldn't be a prescription and would be just your answer)

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Catharine's avatar

thank you for sharing your voice, Celeste.

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